Spring Snow

Chaotic Day

2012-02-06T22:14:00.005-05:00

If I try to describe where my state is right now, chaos would be a perfect word.
My room is a total chaos and so is my mind.
I feel like I am losing a control over lots of things and so is my confidence.
I wish I could just give up, leave everything, and disappear but I know that is not a solution.

I have a bad habit of pounding myself when negative things happen, so here is a pep talk to myself to prevent going down any further.

1. Whatever the problems I have is nothing comparing with a lot of people in the world.
2. You are just having a bad day or week, or two...or more...in any case
3. ....OK this not quite working yet....
I guess I will try later.

Tomorrow is February 7.
There are only two people who know what that means.
It is not going to be a happy day for me but I wish you would have a decent day if it is not a good one. I wish you are protected by God. I wish you are not frustrated at your mother. I wish you would be able to make more money this year so that you can afford what you need.
I will always care about you no matter what. I am really sorry that I am not there for you.

Eternal Love Song

2012-01-07T10:44:00.003-05:00

My mind is all about death, eternal rest, and love.
Well, it is actually not as serious as it sounds....
I have an appointment for an audition with a choir at Capital University today.
I am going to sing Bist Du Bie Mir (If You Are Near Me).
This is attributed to J.S. Bach although there is a speculation that it was written by Gottfried Heinrich Stölzel. If the former is correct, this is written for Bach's 2nd wife, Anna Magdelena, and it is the only love song he wrote. Think about it. The only love song from a major composer in the history. How romantic it is.

I first learned this song in a voice class that I took in my undergrad.
I discovered something that I have never noticed before as I was studying the meaning of the text last night. I noticed that this love Bach is talking about actually could be interpreted as God's love.
It is quite interesting how the way I think changes over the time.

Anyhow, wish me luck or I should say break my leg;)

Thanksgiving

2011-11-24T16:54:00.004-05:00

Happy Thanksgiving to all.

This year is the first time I spend Thanksgiving alone, which is giving me a time to think about who I would want to give thanks to.

I'd like to take an opportunity to say thank you to those who took me in when I am down, who work with me patiently, and who make me smile every day.

I'd like to give my special thanks to two men. I cannot disclose their names here but I am sending you warm wishes...

And at the last but not the least, thank you to my guardian angels or spirits and God for protecting me again from getting a car accident.
Yes, I was quite close to an accident again. My car seems to like to do 360 on a highway.
It was actually after my concert.
It was raining hard and I was reaching toward a relatively steep curve on a highway. There were three cars in front of me just about 50-70 meters away from me and there was no car within 100M behind me. I saw one of the cars in front of me started to spin, so I stepped on a brake. Then...the next thing I know was I was sliding and spinning as well.
Luckily the car slid into a ditch just a several meters away from where guard rails and walls. If I slid another several meters, I would have been in a car accident.
I was merely lucky.

Anyway, thanks to everyone.
I hope everyone can have a warm place to appreciate their lives on this special day.

Thoughtful Night

2011-11-12T20:04:00.008-05:00

The ball is still in my court. It is still alive but I have not been able to decide what to do with it.

**Today's Music**
(You Make Me Feel Like) A Natural Woman

Announcement

2011-11-12T19:50:00.003-05:00

Those who live in Columbus OH,
Yes, it is the time of the year again.

Columbus Women's Chorus 2011 Family and Friends Concert
November 20, Suday
3pm
@Trinity Episcopal Church
125 E Broad Street, Columbus

Columbus International Children's Choir is also joining us.

It is OK

2011-10-26T22:11:00.003-05:00

It is OK to feel sad.
It is OK to miss somebody.
It is OK to cry.
Those shows that you are a human being as well.
You don't need to bury yourself. Set yourself free.

***Today's Music****
Lux Aeterna by Morten Lauridsen.
I did not notice that he wrote this as well....no wonder I am in love with this piece.

Weekend Morning Treat

2011-10-18T19:51:00.003-05:00

I am quite a big fun of Trader Joe's.
Not mention about how great it is to be able to get a bottle of decent wine for under $5, there are many good quality products in reasonable price.
My latest hit is Pumpkin Pancake and Waffle Mix.
Pumpkin Pancakes with maple syrup with some coffee...mmmmm.
I substituted milk with soy milk and it turned out to be just fine.
It is a perfect breakfast on the sleep-in weekend.

Commitment

2011-10-09T14:37:00.006-05:00

A friend of mine is going back to his home country for a woman.
They saw each other only twice a year in the past two years.
They are not married or engaged but he wants to see what could happen.
He gave up on his life he created in the States to seek for the potential love of his life.
I am pretty sure it is not a fairy tale and there must have been ups and downs for him before reaching this huge decision.
I have been there and done that after all.
Anyhow, I admire his courage and wish him the best.

I have to admit that I have had a commitment phobia, and I can not help thinking...
What is wrong with me?

A Song that I Never Want to Forget

2011-10-04T19:20:00.008-05:00

On the way back home from a quire practice the other day, I noticed I always hum the same this one song after practice.

Sure on This Shining Night by Morten Lauridsen

I sang this with Kent State University Chorus.
That was one of the most beautiful song I have ever sang.
I remember I got goose bumps on the stage.
I now realize how rare it was and how lucky I was to be able to feel the moment.

I wish I could go back to that moment....

Maybe I had too much wine

2011-09-19T21:51:00.005-05:00

My dear.
I wonder what you are doing now.
I cannot say that I love you yet as I am not sure what love is anymore.
But I care about you a lot and I think about you.
Always wish that God will protect you and guide you to the success you have been dreamed about.

I was listening to the Christian radio this morning.
I know it may sound cheap but I somehow wanted to hear it.
The host was talking about surrendering to God and trusting his plan.
I felt like God was sending me a message...

**Today's Music**
"Don't Know Why" by Nora Jones

My rose is sick

2011-08-30T21:19:00.003-05:00

My rose looks like it is infected by some kind of disease and insects.
It has spider web like cover over the flowers and leaves. Yellowish or redish spots are observed. Some leaves were dried out and fell off like it did before...
Don't die my rose, please...

Mini Roses

2011-08-01T19:46:00.009-05:00

This picture was taken this morning.
I found this one bud maybe a week to less than two weeks ago. I was slightly scared while I was waiting for this moment because I was afraid that I might kill it.

This is a proof of how strong a small plant can be. This plant almost died over the winter but managed to survive the winter and is surviving this hot summer as well.
I honestly did not think I would be able to see the flower again.
This totally made my day.

Trip to Alaska

2011-08-01T19:10:00.005-05:00

My mother was kind enough to take me to a cruise ship trip with her just a bout a month ago.
The best part of the trip was at the Hubbard Glacier.
I wish I could find words to describe how beautiful the world could be.

I was standing on the deck of our ship for at least 2-3 hours. It was a little chilly (or cold for some folks on the ship) but the coldness did not bother me at all. I could just stare at what God has created on the Earth. There was nothing but our ship and wild lives out there. In front of such a magnificent nature, I felt so small and powerless. I also felt so purified for the first time in a long time.

The glacier was like a humongous sculpture.
You'll be surprised how blue the ice bergs could be and how emerald green the sea could be. I had never seen such pretty colors before.

I am not trying to sell anything but I recommend Holland America Line for the trip to Hubbard Glacier unless you can rent a small airplane or helicopter. The captain will take you as close as you could be. You can see and hear so clearly when ice blocks fall off. Yeah, the sound. That's another thing you'll be surprised.

This is something you must see before you die.

2011-06-14T19:07:00.002-05:00

幸せでないはずなどないのに、さみしくて、せつなくて、苦しくて、子供みたいにひどく泣きじゃくってしまった。

I thought I chose something so that I can be happier but I wonder if I just quit everything and ran away so that I don't need to cry anymore.
I am still crying. How ironic is that?
I wanted to be strong but I feel I am getting weaker and weaker.
I can't even stand on my own anymore.

Someone said to me, "You are good to me."
It's a great pleasure to know that I can make someone happy even though I feel I am the most selfish and cruel person on the planet...

***Today's music***
"Run, Baby, Run" by Sheryl Crow

A tip from someone who once subotaged the love of her life

2011-06-06T20:06:00.007-05:00

Falling in love is not so easy but staying in love is a lot tougher.
If you know that you love someone, tell him/her while you can. Believe me. You'll be a lot happier.

Unexpected

2011-05-23T19:23:00.003-05:00

I have made a lot of mistakes in the 28 years of my life as everybody else does.
I am so lucky that things eventually fell into the right place most of the times.
This time, it is really difficult to believe that everything will be ok.
This is what I started...i have to bare whatever the punishment is.

Anyhow, while I was trying to figure out what I wanna write, I got an unexpected phone call.
I first thought somebody was calling wrong number, then i got a voice mail plus a text message. When i played the voice mail, it took me a while to understand what was going on...
The person who was calling was my old friend from college.
This was the first time to hear his voice in these two years. The last time I heard his voice was when he was right about to getting on the airplane to go to Kyrgyzstan.
He's just came back home about a week ago.
Right now, I am just so glad that he came back home safely.
Thank you God for protecting my friend.

My New Toy

2011-04-27T20:00:00.009-05:00

I made a big purchase over the past weekend.
It was something I have always wanted but I could not really afford to buy one since I wanted to save money for more important things.
Since I haven't taken any picture of my brand new toy, here is the image of what I bought.
http://usa.yamaha.com/products/musical-instruments/keyboards/digitalpianos/dgx_series/dgx-640_color_variation/

Yes!! My own keyboard (or I should say digital piano)! Mine is Cherry one and it looks so pretty in my living room:)
I did some research for about a week, and my buddy took me to music stores last Friday just to get better ideas of what I can get and what I would like.
Oh....yeah....seeing actual products was a bad idea. lol.
I was already keeping my eyes on Yamaha DGX series but I thought cheaper keyboard would be just fine.
I guess I was underestimating my taste. I forgot how I am very picky about musical instruments that I use.
After I saw and tested Yamaha DGX640, all other keyboards looked like nothing.

I don't usually make an impulsive purchase as I hate to use my money. Although Yamaha DGX 640 was on sale, it was still over my budget. There was another keyboard that I thought it was decent for the price but I did not buy anything on that day.
In the next morning, first thing on my mind was the keyboard I looked at, especially Yamaha DGX640. I debated and debated inside of my head....and by the afternoon on that day, I was back at the music store where I saw my favorite one.

After debating another half an hour or longer at the store with my friend, I finally made up my mind. It was really scary and I felt guilty from using more money than my rent at once.

Well, I am very happy about my purchase so far.
I am enjoying play with it everyday. This is helping me to get out of my depression mode for sure.

******Today's music******
Snow White by BOYZ II MEN
This is actually originally Japanese musician's song.
白い恋人達(Shiroi Koibitotachi by Yusuke Kuwata)

On a Easter Weekend

2011-04-23T22:22:00.009-05:00

I was watching "Jesus of Nazareth" this past weekend. I felt like it was just the right movie to watch on the Easter weekend.
I actually started to watch it earlier this year, then something happened to my life, which kept me away from this movie.
Unfortunately, my mind was pre-occupied with bunch of things when I re-started to watch the movie, so I had to rewind the same chapter again and again....^.^;
It's such a long movie that it requires a determination to go through the entire movie.

I sort of became a Christian. I have told this only a couple of people as I still cannot understand certain things about Christianity.
I am still not sure if it was truly a miracle, simply an impulsive action, or I was too tired to think anything clearly and I have lost my mind.
One thing that is for sure is that I was in extreme pain when that happened and receiving Christ was the only comfort that I could have....
It made sense to me at that moment and I did not want to receive Christ with anybody else but the person I was with at that time.
I still believe in God as I have always believed in him. There are certain things that I cannot quite understand if they are not God's blessings.

I was trying to stay away from negative feeling this past weekend but the whole Easter thing actually made me very emotional. My emotion was like a roller coaster ride.
I was way too depressed to wake up on Friday and then I was quite happy in the afternoon.
I was extremely excited on Saturday night because I got a new toy but that's a story for another time.
I went to see what I call my American family in Cleveland on Sunday, and had a great time. I had good dinner and I played with my friend's niece and nephew a lot. I actually talked with them more than with my friend. (lol.) I was so content when I left the house, then I was so emotional that I could not help crying while I was driving back to Columbus.

Anyway God bless you.

***Today's CD****
"Not Too Late" by Norah Jones

Today's Music

2011-04-19T21:19:00.002-05:00

Prisoner of Love by Utada Hikaru

I've just noticed the time stamp of this site is not EST.

What I noticed today

2011-04-18T22:00:00.004-05:00

1)My recent biggest guilt is the fact that I'm so much more self-centered than I have ever been.
At a certain point in the past, I forgot about my needs and wants and lost myself, so I started to shift the focus on me. Then I forgot about caring about others. I occasionally feel like I have no interests on other human beings. How sad it is....
I can't take a balance between focusing on myself and caring about others.

2)I have not really enjoyed spring yet this year. Is something wrong with me?

3)My memory is getting worse.
I bought 2 cases of eggs two days in a row by accident. What a waste....I would not be able to finish them all...-_-

4)I don't know why I am still awake. I am not gonna be able to stay awake at work tomorrow...

片付かないもの

2011-04-05T20:56:00.003-05:00

片付けられない物がたくさん散らばった部屋。
たった一枚の手紙で、ほんの数行のメールで、まだこんなにも泣き出してしまう。
いっぱい、いっぱい傷つけたのに、嫌われて当然なのに、まだこんなにも愛してくれる。
まだ許してくれるという。
そんな資格なんてないのに・・・。

Antonyms

2011-04-04T21:22:00.005-05:00

Empty and fulfilled.
Happy and sad.
Secured and scared.
Passionate and apathetic.

I did not know these opposite pairs can simultaneously coincide with one other.
Human feelings are interesting.
Honestly I am not quite sure what I am trying to say here right now.

***************
Today's finding:
I found out that the cheapest set of a digital piano can cost almost as much as my apartment rent. Furthermore, buying a flight ticket to Seattle, which I am looking for right now to take a cruise ship trip with my mother, is more likely to be cheaper than a digital piano.

Today's music:
"Passenger Seat" by Death Cab for Cutie

Eat Pray Love

2011-02-13T21:56:00.006-05:00

I am going to write about something personal tonight.

I was watching movie called "Eat Pray Love" the other day. Later on that night, I asked God to give me a sign like he used to do. And guess what? I think God listened to my request.
The next day I watched that movie again. I somehow felt I needed to do so and I decided to take some notes whenever something comes up to my mind.

This may sound stupid for some people but Hollywood movie can actually teach you something.

As the main character goes through her journey, I was seeing myself in her in some scenes.
I have had a rough time in my relationship with my boyfriend or ex (or whatever he is now). It was not completely his fault that I have had a hard time. I know that I did or did not do some things.

One thing I realized was I comprised with a lot things for my loved one. I thought I was doing so for my own satisfaction or desire but the truth was I was telling myself that what I had to sacrifice was my choice in many occasions.
You sometimes have to compromise with your partner to make things work between two completely different people but you have to keep the balance between what you want or need and what your partner wants or needs.
My unbalanced relationship eventually started to fall apart.... It did at least at my side.

The other thing I noticed was I was disappearing in my loved one. The distinction between my identity and my partner's identity started to disappear. --I have my identity crisis now.
I really need a sense of myself to figure out what is important in my life and what really makes me happy right now. All the decisions I made lately have been based on what someone said.
I am influenced by others way too much. This is not me...

It seems like I set out for a quest of myself this past weekend...

Give me a sign

2011-02-11T23:29:00.005-05:00

I used to be able to see signs around me. Signs used to give me wisdom when I am lost. I don't see or hear anything right now.
Or am I just being blind? Am I not letting myself see things clearly?
I was thinking about how far things went and how much I have hurt others. I cannot tell what is right and wrong or what is real and not real anymore.
I don't know what makes me happy anymore.

God, please just take pains away from us.

This reminds me of a piece by Samuel Barber.
Agunus Dei, qui tollis peccata mundi, miserere nobis.
Agunus Dei, qui tollis peccata mundi, dona nobis pacem.

Will I be forgiven?

Confusion

2010-12-19T23:04:00.004-05:00

Life often throws you into some confusion.
And life always surprises you.
I guess it is a good thing....

Pandora Radio Led Me to an Old Friend

2010-11-22T20:01:00.007-05:00

I have been listening to online radio station called Pandora Radio, which was recommended by my friend.
The great thing about this radio station is you can type your favorite song or musician, or simply choose a genre, then the site automatically pick up similar type of music and creates a station for you. You will be surprised by the selections they have. You may discover your new favorite music or musician through this site.
And don't forget about the fact that it is FREE;)

I was listening to my "Green Day" radio just now. Then it picked up "Today" by Smashing Pumpkin. The name of this group hasn't been heard in my life for a long time, I honestly forgot about the existence of this group until just now, but as I see the name on my computer screen, my memory about this group instantly came back...
About a guy I used to have a huge crush on.
Smashing Pumpkin was one of his favorite groups, and I often listened to this group's music when I was in his car.
One memory leads to another. As I am writing this entry, I started to remember more about him, the time we were sort of study buddies, our common friends, my broken-heart experience, my first driving, and even my first car crush (this poor guy had to witness my nearly-death experience and he was late for work thanks to that). He was a good friend and a good listener. Back in my glad school days, whenever I needed an advice or someone to talk to, he used to be there for me over the phone.
I've come so far from back then...
I wonder how he's doing now. Last time I checked, he was in oversea. He should be coming back to the States sometime soon. Maybe I will drop a line.

Time for a Reality Check

2010-11-16T19:14:00.005-05:00

Life events happen to others occasionally make me evaluate where I am, what I have, and myself.
There has been a question in my head for a while. Am I just hanging onto things or do I really want to keep things in my hand? It might be a time for me to do a reality check one more time.

Questions which you should ask yourself

2010-09-11T10:24:00.005-05:00

1. What makes you feel good? What activities do you find fun, satisfying, or energizing?
2. What makes you feel bad? What are sources of anger, irritation, boredom, frustration, or anxiety in your life?
3. Is there any way in which you don't feel right about your life? Do you wish you could change jobs, cities, family situation, or other circumstances? Are you living up to your expectations for yourself? Does your life reflect your values?
4. Do you have sources of an atmosphere of growth? In what areas of your life do you find progress, learning, challenge, improvement, and increased mastery?

Source: http://www.happinessprojecttoolbox.com/using_happiness_toolbox.html

Letting things go

2010-07-23T22:19:00.005-05:00

It gets really difficult to let go of something you have had for a long time.
Especially if you have a lot of love and memories in it.
Even if you don't have any love in it anymore, you still feel like hanging on to it.

I have something that I think I should let go of...but I still feel that I might regret if I do let it go.
I don't know what I wanna do about it anymore.
I am so tempted to keep it in the closet and never look at it again.

Tiny Hope

2010-05-25T18:41:00.005-05:00

In front of strong wind, your light green stems and leaves could not stand straight.
Yet you try to stand up straight again.
Every time a storm comes, your head falls down on to the ground.
Yet you still try to keep growing,
hoping, someday, somebody would glance at your blossom and put a smile on his or her face.

まだ黄緑色のその枝や葉は、強風に打たれると打ちのめされてしまう。
それでも、君はまた真っ直ぐに立ちあがろうとする。
嵐のたびに、君はその頭（こうべ）を垂れてしまう。
それでも尚、君は伸び続けようとする。
いつか、誰かが咲きほこる君を見て微笑みを浮かべてくれることを願って。

50%

2010-05-02T17:41:00.004-05:00

I recently have had visits from one particular bird on my balcony.
I could be wrong but it looks like the same female cardinal.
I don't have any bird feeder or plants (except a dead plant) but it just keeps coming back.
It's nice to see a bird real close in a city....

as long as I don't see any bird poop on my balcony.

Anyway, I got an e-mail from a schoolmate the other day.
In the e-mail, she mentioned her separation with her husband.
2 out of 6 of my schoolmates had divorced and 1 was in couple therapy, and there is one separation to add to this statistic now.
According to a study from several years ago, 50% of couples end up getting divorced in the US.
I wonder how the divorce rate is now.

Birth and Death

2010-02-24T18:36:00.005-05:00

My sister-like friend's baby was born on February 14, on the Valentine's Day.
I was literally there in the delivery room and witnessed the most important moment of his life.
This new mother was so grateful that I was there for her. She was especially grateful for me filming a video right after the baby was born.

On the other hand, I was quite lost and not sure what to feel about this precious moment.
I imagined I would be so thrilled and touched when I actually see the baby. I thought I would be like "OMG....how cute he is!!"
The truth is...I was just amazed at how small the baby was and I was looking at him as if I'm looking at some kind of strange creature.
Don't take me wrong! I was and I am extremely happy for my friend, her family, the baby's father, and of course the baby boy.
It was just different from what I imagined. The moment did not touch my maternal instinct at all. I could not feel that the baby was cute.
I was almost disappointed at my reaction and I questioned myself if I could feel that my own baby is cute if I ever give a birth.
I've never really wanted a kid before but I thought I would want at least one someday.
Therefore my reaction made me think that I maybe don't want any kids at all.

After more than a week has passed, I finally started to feel (not just think) that the birth of this baby is so special and I am truly grateful that I could be there. I still don't feel that I want a baby in the future yet, but I am at least finally thrilled about what happened.

A few days later the baby was born, I heard that someone I know from Kent State University has passed away. She was an instructor of Japanese language. When I was a Graduate Assistant at KSU, I used to see her almost every week and I even went to her classes for observation so that I could study how to teach in case I had to teach as a Teaching Assistant. She was a wonderful person and I just loved her smile. It was a shocking news to me...especially after I witnessed someone's birth.

Someone was born and someone else died. Birth and death.
These two incidents reminded me that life is not infinite.
People come and go. The life starts and ends.
You cannot waste any moment of your life.

About to witness a new life to come out

2010-02-14T02:07:00.003-05:00

I went to a baby shower for my friend yesterday.
And guess what?
I have been at the hospital with her and her mom since a few hours after the shower.
She was telling me that she would love to deliver her son on the Valentine's Day. And here we are at the hospital now.

Baby boy, mama is taking the worst pain of her life for you now. Come out soon.

Happy New Year

2009-12-31T09:54:00.003-05:00

Happy New Year to all!

Another year has passed.
The beginning of 2009 was awful as if it represents the rest of the year.
There were of course good things among the bad things.
2009 was the year that I lost myself.
I wasn't sure who I am, what I am doing, and where I am heading to...
I wasn't myself anymore. I was always scared of being evaluated by someone.

I came back home for my Christmas break this year. I originally planned this trip for my grandparents but there is no need for that anymore. It, however, seems like I needed this break for myself.
Coming back home and sitting at the desk where I used to dream the future and studied so hard reminded me who I was. Because I was trying too hard to be someone, I hated myself and I didn't want to care anything anymore. As long as I am feeling pressure from someone, I will not be able to grow up. I will not be able to achieve anything. The motivation has to come out from the inside of my heart.

In 2010, I would like to go back to where I was and rebuild things from the scratch again.
もう一度、まっさらな気持ちで始めようと思う。

Vacation

2009-07-07T11:45:00.008-05:00

I have been on my 2-week vacation since last weekend, so my mother and her friend were visiting me. It's been about a year since last time I saw my (biological) mother.

I took them around downtown Columbus, German village, and Amish country. I already took my mother there twice, but she insisted she wanted to go back there.
So this time, we actually stayed at a B&B for one night.
It was beyond my expectation!
The place we stayed at was actually more like a cottage, and we were staying at the 2-bedroom floor with a huge living room and kitchen. We had everything we need such as a coffeemaker, some bread and juice for breakfast, cooking equipments, a Whirlpool bath in each room, an entertainment center, a nice deck with chairs. At last but not the least, we had a great view from the deck. There is a Amish family's farm and their house right in front of the hotel, and we could see horses eating glasses right below our deck.

It's a great place to stay to get away from the life in a city. I really wished I could stay there one more night so that I could do nothing but reading, cooking, and maybe taking a walk.

If you ever have a chance to come to the Amish country in OH, I strongly recommend that you should stay at Holmes with A View.

Today's Quote

2009-06-12T21:55:00.003-05:00

"We are afriad of losing what we have, wheterh it's our life or our possessions and property. Buth this fear evaporates when we understand that our life stories and the history of the world were written by the same hand."
--Excerpts from The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho

Just a small thing

2009-05-16T23:19:00.004-05:00

Just a small thing can fill your heart.

電話を切った後、思わず顔がほころんでいる自分に気づいた。
出合った頃みたい。
まだ大丈夫だと思った瞬間。

26th Birthday

2009-02-23T20:05:00.004-05:00

I'm finally or already 26 years old.
Every year when I turn one more year older, I get strange feeling.
--Am I really growing up?

I feel I am more childish than ever recently.

When I was small, I wanted to get married by 26. I somehow thought that would be the appropriate age.
Many of my friends and classmates from college are getting married or got married recently.
I bet none of us imagined this would happen 5~6 years ago...How could they get married so young!? That's a huge commitment to make!
I still prefer to be a single not only because I don't believe in marriage so much but also because I still have so many things that I want to do as well as things that I need to learn as a person before being a part of or responsible for someone else's life.

Regardless whether I am growing up or stuck in my teenager mind, I had another great birthday thanks to my friends and loved one.
It's really rare to have a b-day on the weekend, so I'm glad that I got to spend whole day just really "enjoying" the fact that I am still alive.

The best thing of my b-day this year was probably my birthday present.
I got a porcelain bowl as one of my b-day presents, which was what I had been wanted but I was hesitated to ask for for a long time. I didn't even think I would be able to get one for my birthday. I still don't think I deserve it!
I don't know if the gift sender read my mind or just realized that I looked desperate every time I see porcelain or ceramic artifacts at stores or art festivals...but that was really a surprise gift to me and that was really sweet.

Seducing the Boys Club

2009-02-04T20:07:00.007-05:00

Last 2 times when I was at a meeting as a interpreter, I did a pretty bad job even though the Japanese engineers were extremely grateful and thanking me after the each meeting.
I am extremely ashamed about myself, so I decide to do the old-fashion interpreting practice that I used to do when I was taking a beginners' interpretation course for interpreting back in Japan.
It's called shadowing.
You repeat what a speaker said a little later than he or she said and keep following that person. It' like simultaneous interpreting except you don't interpret but you speak exactly the same sentences. When you got used to "shadow," it's time to practice actual interpreting sentence by sentence.

Since I don't really have any recordings, I am using podcast news. They are really good materials. I also downloaded a free software called "Audacity" so that I can record my voice and listen to it.

Anyway, I just happened to find a program that recorded an interesting interview with Nina Disesa, who wrote a book titled "Seducing the Boys Club." The book is basically about how to deal with people and how to be successful at work.

I don't really have a time to talk about the book in detail right now, so here's her book's website.
http://www.seducingtheboysclub.com/

Also, the interview that I was practicing with:
Good Morning America Now at http://abcnews.go.com/Technology/Podcasting/
(I assume this interview will be replaced with new one sometime soon...)

By the way, I like the title of the book :P

Sad News

2009-01-11T16:18:00.004-05:00

Happy Belated New Year to all!

I had a long vacation over the holidays and spent pretty much entire vacation at other people's houses. It was relaxing and tiring 2 weeks for me.
I could spend a good time with my friends, American family, and the last but not the least, with my loved one. There, however, were some sad news around the Christmas Day.

One of my closest friend's Dad has passed away on the Christmas morning. It was really shocking news since I was actually looking forward to see my friend's Dad as much as seeing my friend. We were even supposed to have dinner together on the next day at his place. His Dad is still in his late-50s...pretty much same as my Dad...and my friend was back at home from Japan where he works now for the first time in this a year and a half or so.
It was also really painful to see my friend and his family are so down. All I could do was being at the wake and church service...

A day or 2 days after I received the sad news, I received another news from my Mom via E-mail. It was news that my Grandpa is in the final stage of cancer and he may or may not have 3 months left. He is my Dad's side Grandpa and I am not close to him, but he's still my family and I will not be able to see him for the last time since I can't leave the States for my Visa status. Grandpa doesn't know that he has cancer all over his body and the family is not going to tell him either. He will not take any medication other than removing pain. He's in his 90s, so I think that's the best thing to let him have a quality time...but if I were in his position, I would rather know what I am dealing with...and how long I have left. He lived long enough and I think he would know when his time is almost up though.

Life is so fragile. These sad news reminded me that we all have limited time in our lives and makes me realize how lucky I am that I still have so many people that I love around me.

RIP Mr. Maskey. I will miss your jokes worse than your son and your tricks.

Where Is My Career Going?

2008-10-16T17:12:00.005-05:00

My astrology was all about my career today, so let's talk about career.

My career has just started 3 months and 2 days ago.

I used to wanted to be a classical singer or music teacher, then my dream was directed to a ground staff at an airport. Then I decided to go for world politics. I wanted to work in the UN or some kind of international organization. After I started realize that what I love to learn may not be suitable to me as a job, so I went to a grad school for a practical reason -- getting a job. I studied translation through academic and business point of views at probably one of the best schools for translation, which I figured that out after I started the school.
Now, I'm working as an in-house translator.

I gotta say I am still not sure where I am heading to.
I like my current job, but this is not the kind of job that I want to do in the rest of my life. I can see myself working in a translation agency or localization department of a private company. I am also interested in the documentation center in the UN. I might be interested in freelancing if everything works out. Or I might go for another Master's degree or even Ph.D!

Maybe....my current career goal is doing everything I can. It's definitely not a model answer for a job interview though:D

When I was a kid, I thought I would find a solid base of my life by the age I am now. I, however, still feel the same way when I sort of moved to America about 5 years ago: I can go anywhere I want to.

Showing Your Love to Others

2008-10-11T12:43:00.010-05:00

Some people likes to express their love to others directly in every minute.
Others would prefer to show their love to others occasionally but not really an explicit way.
Some others think saying "I love you" is just a lame.

Would it be really fake if you show your affection to others frequently?

I consider myself as a semi-affectionate person. If I really love someone, I can't just keep it to myself. It overflows from the inside. Although I don't need to say "I love you" every time I hang up my phone or kiss my boy friend in public, I wanna show that I love the person by some kind of way. I sometimes wanna spell it out. Other times I just want to hug somebody that I love.

So now, there are few questions.
Am I expecting love in return when I show my love to others? Is it sly if I am?
Or... do I just want to make feel others better by showing my love?
Is it childish to hope that someone love you back as much as you love that person?

To be honest with you, I want to feel that I am loved. That's a great source of my power. That feeling makes me emotionally stable and active in any aspects of my life. Who doesn't want to be accepted by someone, especially someone you love?

One time, I had to ask my boy friend if he still likes me because I wondered if he is with me because he feels that he has an obligation with me and feels guilty about hurting me by breaking up with me.
"Are you in high school?"
That was the answer I received. That was not what I expected or wanted to hear at that moment of course.
I just needed to feel secure. At that time, I knew that I was irritating him by different things even I didn't mean to. I felt I couldn't make him happy because everything I do was wrong. I seriously couldn't understand why he was still with me. I needed to hear that he likes me and that is the only reason why he doesn't break up with me even after realizing how I am different from him and way too sensitive for him.
I think most women want to hear that her man loves her.
(Some people may never understand this...)

"Your deeds speak more than your words."

Yes, that is true, yet this saying is not fully taking a message receiver's perception into consideration.
Your deeds may also send a wrong message to others.
Nobody can read others minds (unless you are a real psychic). If you want to send a right message, you sometimes have to say it clearly.
Why did your parents teach you to say thank you to others? Isn't that because to show your appreciation to others? Then why not your affection to others?
At least, that's how I feel. (It doesn't mean everyone should feel the same way.)

*Notice: I'm not saying my b/f doesn't love me as much as I do. I know he cares about me as much as I do or sometimes more than I do. He just has a different way to show me and nothing is wrong with it, and my way is not wrong either. I brought up my personal experience just as an example of how preference differ among people and people shouldn't judge each other by that.

How Not to Regret Over Today

2007-12-19T10:15:00.001-05:00

I recently read a wonderful poem in Japanese. It was originally written in English in 1989 and spread the world after 9.11. I wanted to read the original but can't track the source, so below is my translation of the translation. I have no talent of writing a poem, so this is not perfect but I hope you'll get the sense.

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If I knew that was the last time to see you falling asleep,
I would have pulled your blanket up,
and prayed God would protect you.

If I knew that was the last time to see you leaving home,
I would have held you tight, kissed you,
and called your name to hold you one more time.

If I knew that was the last time to hear you making a joyful sound,
I would have taped everything and watched it again and again everyday.

Sure, tomorrow always comes,
you can catch up something you missed,
you can have a second chance even if you make a mistake,

you can tell, "I love you" anytime.
you can say, "Can I help you?" anytime.

However,
if that is my misunderstanding and everything will end today,

I want to tell you how much I love you, today.

We shall not forget
that there is no promise for tomorrow whether you are young or old,
that today might be the last day for you to hold your loved one.
You do not need to wait for tomorrow.
Today is the day.

If tomorrow never comes,
there will be a regret for this day:
Why didn't I spare a little time for a smile, a cuddle, and a kiss?
Why didn't I do my loved one's last favor just because I was busy?

This is why you shall hold your precious one tight today.
You shall whisper to the person that you love him or her,
that he or she will be your precious one forever.

Have a moment to tell "I'm sorry," "Forgive me," "Thank you," or "Don't worry."
Then, you shall not regret over today...

If you have someone you love,
thank the miracle of being able to be with that person today.

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God bless you,

Thoughtful in my PJ

2007-09-30T13:20:00.003-05:00

I was watching "Friends" the other night. The one phrase one of the character said got my attention. This is not what exactly she said, but she said something like,
"I don't believe in a soul mate. We just work hard to work out our relationship."

I am a person who lives with feelings/instincts, so I personally believe there's a soul mate but I still agree with the idea. Everybody just works hard to keep their relationships because they want to. It's worth struggling for. There's much more than just struggles.

Thanks Note to My Buddies

2007-07-25T21:39:00.000-05:00

To my sweeties who are leaving country for new lives in less than a month,

I really really appreciate you for being my supporters.
Whenever I am down, I remember you are still out there for me.
Just a silly talk with one of you makes me smile.
Those tight hugs you always give me make me feel I have a nest to take a rest.
You will be far away in a bit....which sucks coz I probably won't get to see you for Thanksgiving, Christmas, or New Year's Eve...breaking our tradition...but we will keep in touch with each other. I always look forward to hearing from you. I wish I could be there to share the great time you will have.

Thanks for these 3-4 years despite of me being bitchy sometimes. Meeting you guys were one of the best things happened to me in the States!

Always love you and wishing the best for you,
(I've never said love you to my guy friends, so you should be honored to hear this=P)

Changes

2007-03-04T09:57:00.000-05:00

Life changes constantly.
You keep losing and gaining something as long as you live.
It could make your life worse....or better, but it really depends on how you perceive that change.
You may mourn the change, but you can also celebrate it as a start of something new.

I had a drastic change lately, which gives me some new meaning and power. Actually, I think I'm still on the process of metamorphosis.
I have to admit changes are sometimes stressful, especially when the change is coming from outside, not from inside of ourselves. We are independent adult (at least I consider myself as an independent human being). We usually do not want to be told what we should do or what is right/wrong from others.
So, changes are sometimes scary and stressful but I also feel lucky to have a chance to change something, a chance to take a look at my life from a different angle.

My change came from outside at first, but I internalized the change--pacing myself in other words.
I feel lucky to have someone who could give me a trigger and who wants to share the process of changing with me.

24th Birthday

2007-02-24T07:17:00.000-05:00

Many thanks to those who gave me birthday messages and wishes...

Thanks for reminding me that I'm loved and an important thing in my life.

This year I thought it's gonna be really lonely because I thought none of my close friends can celebrate with me.
But guess what happened?

Everyone I know in Kent gave me a birthday wishes and/or hugs.
Even Cary; my rival, enemy, big brother and fellow student.
Even my advisor and coworkers.
Even my old roommate, dorm-mates, and classmates.

Foremost, even my students and those who come the event I'm in charge of at school.
I'm in charge of "coffee hour," which is a weekly event sponsored by our department. It's just a casual gathering.
Anyway, the coffee hour was next day of my birthday. In the end of coffee hour, the students brought me this huge cake and a present with birthday card!!!!!!!!!!!!
Can you imagine how much I was moved??
I kept saying "Oh, my god...."
That was the most sweetest things of the year!!
It was great not only because they did something special for me but also because I could realize they appreciated my work.

たくさんの人が２４年前の奇跡を一緒に喜んでくれる。
生まれてきてよかった、
そう思った瞬間でした。

Authors bring foreign perspective - Campus

2007-02-15T19:38:00.001-05:00

Authors bring foreign perspective - Campus

What a disappointment!!
I really wanna ask the reporter what she was listening! And I can't believe the editor in chief gave go-sign for the title. It conveys completely wrong message.

Asian Americans are definitely not FOREIGNERS.
The reason why Literary Caravan started this reading tour is expressing their identity as Americans and letting other Americans know that they are same Americans.

This is not the first time for BG News did this kind of misinterpretation this year and Asian Communities United (including myself as former active member) has been working on this issue...What a shame.

To brighten up your day

2006-10-26T19:27:00.000-05:00

COSTELLO CALLS TO BUY A COMPUTER FROM ABBOTT

ABBOTT: Super Duper computer store. Can I help you?
COSTELLO: Thanks. I'm setting up an office in my den and I'm thinking about buying a computer.
ABBOTT: Mac?
COSTELLO: No, the name's Lou.
ABBOTT: Your computer?
COSTELLO: I don't own a computer. I want to buy one.
ABBOTT: Mac?
COSTELLO: I told you, my name's Lou.
ABBOTT: What about Windows?
COSTELLO: Why? Will it get stuffy in here?
ABBOTT: Do you want a computer with Windows?
COSTELLO: I don't know. What will I see when I look at the windows?
ABBOTT: Wallpaper.
COSTELLO: Never mind the windows. I need a computer and software.
ABBOTT: Software for Windows?
COSTELLO: No. On the computer! I need something I can use to write proposals and track expenses and run my business. What do you have?
ABBOTT: Office.
COSTELLO: Yeah, for my office. Can you recommend anything?
ABBOTT: I just did.
COSTELLO: You just did what?
ABBOTT: Recommend something.
COSTELLO: You recommended something?
ABBOTT: Yes.
COSTELLO: For my office?
ABBOTT: Yes.
COSTELLO: OK, what did you recommend for my office?
ABBOTT: Office.
COSTELLO: Yes, for my office!
ABBOTT: I recommend Office with Windows.
COSTELLO: I already have an office with windows! OK, let's just say I'm sitting at my computer and I want to type a proposal. What do I need?
ABBOTT: Word.
COSTELLO: What word?
ABBOTT: Word in Office.
COSTELLO: The only word in office is office.
ABBOTT: The Word in Office for Windows.
COSTELLO: Which word in office for windows?
ABBOTT: The Word you get when you click the blue "W".
COSTELLO: I'm going to click your blue "w" if you don't start with some straight answers. What about financial bookkeeping? You have anything I can track my money with?
ABBOTT: Money.
COSTELLO: That's right. What do you have?
ABBOTT: Money.
COSTELLO: I need money to track my money?
ABBOTT: It comes bundled with your computer.
COSTELLO: What's bundled with my computer?
ABBOTT: Money.
COSTELLO: Money comes with my computer?
ABBOTT: Yes. No extra charge.
COSTELLO: I get a bundle of money with my computer? How much?
ABBOTT: One copy.
COSTELLO: Isn't it illegal to copy money?
ABBOTT: Microsoft gave us a license to copy Money.
COSTELLO: They can give you a license to copy money?
ABB OTT: Why not? THEY OWN IT!(A few days later)
ABBOTT: Super Duper computer store. Can I help you?
COSTELLO: How do I turn my computer off?
ABBOTT: Click on "START

Graduation

2006-08-05T19:38:00.001-05:00

I had the most important day in my entire college life today. I was not only excited to wear my gown and hat, but also I was really proud of myself, looking back how I came to this day.

So, my Bachelor's degree was officially confirmed. I am officially Alumna of Bowling Green State University. Five years.... It took five years to get where I am now.
I am really glad that I could graduate from BGSU but not Nanzan University.

My friends, guardians, friend's family came to the commencement to see me walking the platform to get my degree holder ( not the degree itself because it'll be mailed later). Even though my best girl friend and my buddy couldn't come, I'm sure I had the best smile in these three years.

By the way, August graduation is wonderful except the point that it's extremely HOT!!!!!

Graduation Card from a Friend

2006-06-27T23:41:00.000-05:00

Success-
the art of being who you already are.

-from the early graduation card I got from Seuss today-

Church

2006-05-14T21:34:00.000-05:00

So, I went to church this morning.
It wasn't bad. The ministry wasn't a good speaker but people there welcomed this strange foreigner warmly. I thought it was very nice. And I understood why church communities are so important for some people.
Since it's Mother's Day, they talked about love.
Love to your Moms, Dads, brothers and sisters, neighbors, and God.

To be able to love someone, we need to experience love first.
A baby who couldn't get enough attention from the parents in the first 6 months, he/she has a problem with relationships with others.
According to this psychologists, you first need to learn that there would be someone when you need.

Interpreted by my words,
"To be able to love, you need to be able to accept love.
And love doesn't expect anything as a return.
You just love."

2006-04-29T19:46:00.000-05:00

Here's two tips if you are planning to smuggle ivory.
1)Come into America from Alaska.
2)Smuggle on the weekend.
Trust me, there are less security guards.

And if you see the ad saying you can buy a star. Don't trust it.
You are prohibited to sell/buy outer space resources by international treaty. But there's exception. If your country has not signed the treaty yet.....Yes, you can buy a star.

Anyway, Exam week is around the corner.
Let's be good student for 1 week.

Important Announcement

2006-04-09T22:42:00.000-05:00

As you know, I'm (supposed to be) graduating college this August. After the graduation, I think I'm going to go to a grad school in Kent State University to get MA in translation...and 2 years later from now, I guess I will be a professional translator....
I got the acceptance letter last month but I've been considering what I should do/what I really wanna do since January, right after I sent the application to the grad school. I've been going back and forth for these 1-2 months. Like...One time, I decided to decline the acceptance, but the next day, I changed my mind again....

I still don't know this is the right decision or this is what I really wanna do, but I know this is what I should do now. 2 years later, I will figure out if this was the right decision or not. Even if I decided to go other way, the experience I will have in the next 2 years won't be a waste. That's for sure.

So, I guess I'm having an interesting resume so far. Studying abroad, Transferring from Japan, and now I'm changing my major. Well, who knows what will happen in the future. I just know I will eventually get to the point where I should be no matter waht that is. No matter how long it'll take....

2006-03-06T09:41:00.000-05:00

Good news , bad news.
Good one first. Mom is coming to see me tomorrow.

Bad news. One of my professor, Dr. Kawashima, has passed away yesterday morning.
I'm so shocked and just can't believe....
He was a great professor and made a lot of contribution to our school.
And foremost, he was a really loveable and generous man.
We all miss him.

I was looking at his comment on my journal for his class....I got back this just one week ago.
I don't feel sad yet. Just shocked.....I can't find a word.
I hope I can go to his funeral on Thursday.

Today's Quote

2006-01-19T22:32:00.002-05:00

"The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams."
by Eleanor Roosevelt (quoted from the lid of Honestea)

For Your Study Break

2005-12-12T09:42:00.000-05:00

I would like to introduce my first nephew, Itsuki.

Isn't he a cutie?=D
I'm afraid that I will spoil him.

Alcoholic?!XD

2005-11-20T01:50:00.000-05:00

I've just got a picture from my roomie....XD

We look like alcoholic.
These beer bottles are hidden under in our kitchen sink.

P.S
We didn't drink ALL OF THEM. Just in case you believed we are really alcoholic.

2005-11-19T14:58:00.000-05:00

When I feel down,
1) I eat cookies, chocolate, or ice cream
2) I drink wine or cocktail and go to bed earlier
3) I look up the sky
4) I go to "the hill" at school(It's my special place.)
5) I sing or play the piano

It works for most of the people to talk with someone but I'm terribly bad at talking about inside of myself, so that would be the last thing I do.

Sometimes, everything might look terrible for you.
One time, my classmate(She's also an international student and International Studies major) told me that she's telling herself,
"Hang on there. I can get through this. It's just bad time. Things will get better soon."

Let's believe things will get better.
If you are in the worst time, it'll only get better!
If you are positive, you'll have more luck. That's one thing I learned from my life.

After 60 years

2005-08-05T09:12:00.000-05:00

August 6, Monday, in 1945.
One atomic bomb called little boy was thrown.

I was gonna watch a MTV program, but happened to saw a documentary about Hiroshima.
I saw everything through the documentary: the road to Hiroshima, in the morning of Aug. 6th, at the moment of the explosion, and the people after 60 years.
There was one scientist. He made the atomic bomb, was one of the crew of the plane which brought atomic bomb to Hiroshima, and took a movie right after the bomb was exploded. He talked with 2 victims of Hiroshima. One of them asked him to apologize, but he refused it strongly. He said, "I don't apologize. You should apologize." in stead. He mentioned the saying,

"Remember Pearl Harbor."

He lost his friends...he's also a victim of the war. When I heard the phrase, my heart hurt so much. Hatred brings only hatred.

I'm not gonna accuse anybody. I can't because I know what Japan did during the war. But I don't think throwing an atomic bomb was the best choice.

After 60 years has passed, I am studying Peace Studies & Conflict Solution in the U.S. which was once an enemy of Japan. I love America and its people.
I found out the significance of what I'm doing right now. Those three people in the documentary will never be able to understand each other, but I'm different from them. I can be the bridge between Japan and America. I'm glad that I could meet a lot of nice Americans and understand each other.

私がアメリカへ渡ったのは偶然だったのか、それとも必然なのか？それは分からないけど、とても意味のあることをしていると思った。
明日で広島の悲劇から60年。
Remember Hiroshima, Remember Pearl Harbor, Remember our mistakes.
that's all I wanna say now.

Real Strength

2005-05-14T21:50:00.001-05:00

Some people say "Be tough" or "Be strong."
but what does that mean?
Not to show your weakness? To endure no matter what happen? Not to cry? Not to complain?
Maybe, these things are included, but is that all?

A real strong person may be someone who knows he/she is weak at first hand.

Thus, he/she can accept others' weakness and be always kind.

本当に強い人は、自分が弱い事を知っている人なのかもしれない。
我慢したり、弱音をはかないことも強さだけど、弱さを受け入れてあげる事も強さなんじゃないかな？

Find Someone

2005-05-02T20:42:00.000-05:00

This is from my friend's Live Journal.

LADIES...
Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot,
who calls you back when you hang up on him,
who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
Wait for the boy who kisses your forehead,
who wants to show you the world when you are in your sweats, <---?
who holds your hand in front of his friends,
who thinks you're just pretty without makeup on.
Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.
Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, "...that's her."

GUYS...
Find a girl who calls you baby faced instead of hot or sexy who can't stand it when you hang up on her and calls right back,
who would sit there for hours looking into your eyes,
who doesn't care what you look like, but what's inside counts the most,
Who looks at you with the twinkle in her eyes and kisses you on the cheek instead of the lips,
Wants to be with you in public, even if you wear those old grass stained and ripped pants with the bleached jersey like always,
Wait for the girl who is a constant reminder of your happiness and joy,
who makes you smile just by knowing she loves you back.
Wait for the girl who you give piggy back rides to in public and she still is in view of her friends,
while she gets off and you hear her go: "you're the one for me, for always"

Yes. This is it!!!

2005-02-19T22:05:00.000-05:00

この世にある全てのものは変わっていく
でも変わらないで欲しいものもある
忘れてほしくないものもある

Fate

2005-01-17T01:35:00.000-05:00

There's a sign everwhere.
Open your eyes and look around carefully.
Then....you won't miss the signs.

Title of this blog

2004-10-17T09:43:00.000-05:00

I named the title of this blog after one scene of my favorite novel.
The snow falling in Spring is a gift from angels, celebrating and praying for your happiness.
I believe everyone was born to be happy.
-Let me pray for u-

Spring Snow

Chaotic Day

Eternal Love Song

Thanksgiving

Thoughtful Night

Announcement

It is OK

Weekend Morning Treat

Commitment

A Song that I Never Want to Forget

Maybe I had too much wine

My rose is sick

Mini Roses

Trip to Alaska

A tip from someone who once subotaged the love of her life

Unexpected

My New Toy

On a Easter Weekend

Today's Music

What I noticed today

片付かないもの

Antonyms

Eat Pray Love

Give me a sign

Confusion

Pandora Radio Led Me to an Old Friend

Time for a Reality Check

Questions which you should ask yourself

Letting things go

Tiny Hope

50%

Birth and Death

About to witness a new life to come out

Happy New Year

Vacation

Today's Quote

Just a small thing

26th Birthday

Seducing the Boys Club

Sad News

Where Is My Career Going?

Showing Your Love to Others

How Not to Regret Over Today

Thoughtful in my PJ

Thanks Note to My Buddies

Changes

24th Birthday

Authors bring foreign perspective - Campus

To brighten up your day

Graduation

Graduation Card from a Friend

Church

Important Announcement

***Today's Quote***

For Your Study Break

Alcoholic?!XD

After 60 years

Real Strength

Find Someone

Fate

Title of this blog

Today's Quote